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A good friend just recently asked this question on the
phone...... "Asan siya kung kelangan ko siya?" Well, as the chat
carried on I learned it was God she was referring to. Translated she
meant -- 'Where is God when I need Him?' -- I countered though gently
that I was the wrong person to ask that question to.
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She
became silent. And I got worried. So I encouraged her to talk... vent
out whatever it was that was bothering her in that moment it seemed. I
got what I asked for .... a long line of woes that if you strung each to the other it would circle the globe! Twice if you let it.
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Well, that's as much as I can tell about my dear friend. Oh don't worry
about her because after much nudging she finally went to see their
family's friend-priest. She'll be fine.
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My friend is so much
like the rest of us... some of us.... most of us, in small or big
measure, vocally or quietly in the silence of our hearts. We do it all
the time...or at some time in our lives.. in dire situations of fear,
desperation, hopelessness, anger, misery, and overwhelming loss.
Punching bag natin lagi si God. We always blame Him for the seemingly
unfathomable problems of our lives and of the world. We always blame Him
for those things we do not, cannot or fail to understand. Why this?
Why that? Why me? Why my loved ones?
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But, I think, nobody
alive can provide you with the answers you may be seeking, wanting or
needing. Not from people anyway, I think. I understand it as something
which is between you and your God. Like I pose my own share of
mind-boggling questions to Him, too.
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Now you might wonder,
too, if I get answers to those questions. Well, I think I do or I did
but not in the way I want it or wanted it. And not at the time I needed
it. It doesn't happen that way. God does things HIS WAY.
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I
have learned that everything is all up to Him really. . We are only
asked to ... believe, trust, and be of good faith. He answers but to
see the answers we must learn to see them through His eyes. That is the
real challenge.
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Why am I writing about this now? I feel for
my friend and I want to say that she need not feel strange or weird for
feeling the way she does. She's not alone. People are the same
everywhere, basically. We simply try to cope in a diversity of ways with
who we are and what we know...... and how we relate to our God.
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Blessings to you, everyone!
